As a mother of a child that is/was under the influence of drugs...

I have endured a tremendous amount of pain...guilt.... shame.....

fear.... both physical & mentally......

I thought the woarst thing in my life was the ordeal that i went

through with my 'cancer'..... but the abruse from the effects

of drug's  that I did not take was the woarst....

It is my dream, to be able to be an inspiration, to someone

else that has endured, this pain as a mother as i have....

For a long time I tried to hide the abruse, and my own feeling

to protect others... mainly my family... and my abruser......

To be hit, threatened, cursed at, & slandered, by a child

has been the woarst, most unbearable thing I have had to endure.

At the same time I live my life hoping for a cure for cancer,

having to live in my own private hell.....

This website was set up for me by a dear friend for me to write

and for one year I used it for just poems, and comments....

not that I had writers block, but for the fear of upseting my

family... or letting others know the hell I have been through...

TO HAVE MY LIFE THREATENED BY A CHILD I GAVE LIFE TOO.....

But I came throught this, and I owe it all to the Lord..........